«What's Left For A Dead Man?»

I guess I need some advice about the self-harm issue here.

So tw: self-harm, ED.

Mar 6, 2013

Maybe I don’t really have one thing left now…?

tw:suicide; tw: eating disorder

Feb 16, 2013

zarggg:

I wish I knew what people who don’t have depression think about all day.

Reblogged from zarggg

Jan 22, 2013

Why do you hate school?

There was a photo going around a couple weeks ago, of a Google search, and it said “School makes me-“, and a bunch of negative things came up: suicidal, depressed, anxious, sad.

Would anyone out there like to share your stories with me? What unfair things teachers have done to you, how you were oppressed, and how you were mistreated by your peers.

I need some research for what I’m writing, since it’s about how messed up “the system” is, and how people who are different get treated.

Please only share what you are comfortable with telling, if at all.

Thank you.

Jan 20, 2013

Just another one of those emo posts…

Jan 18, 2013

9gag:

Sums it up

This seriously describes me, what I was told to do, and how I have been acting.

Reblogged from fandomwon

source: 9gag

Jan 9, 2013

I can’t say I blame them anymore though…heh.

Reblogged from yuukiina

source: keiifuu

Dec 30, 2012

catsandcunts:

sturmtruppen:

i honestly can’t believe someone made this post

Reblogged from kawaiiiope

source: SoundCloud / babestuck

Dec 28, 2012

estellassummertimesadness:

[Off now. Gotta study.]

Taglines for my life?

Reblogged from do-we-still-exist

Dec 27, 2012

I’M FINE. I’M JUST TIRED…

Dec 26, 2012

You keep your MENTAL ILLNESS a secret. You don’t talk about it, because you’ve learned that society views you as nothing more than an ATTENTION-SEEKING STAIN. You’ve learned that people see you as pathetic, lazy, and CRAZY…well, you are, aren’t you? You’ve learned that people treat you DIFFERENTLY once they find out you have to take MEDICATION for all your mental sicknesses—all of them. They call you “worthless” and “freak”. They don’t treat you as an equal. You are less than the normal people of the world.
So you wear long sleeves and pants every season of the year. You tell people you like getting PIERCINGS and TATTOOS because you think they are cool, rather than the truth that the sting of the needles help you not CUT for just a little bit. You tell people that you work from home, instead of informing them that you’re unable have a job, because your anxiety, paranoia, anger, depression, OCD, and insomnia leaves you unfit to function in a normal life style. When you try to PRETEND to be like a normal person, you always end up SUICIDAL and in a mental institution.
You fall in love easily, and you are actually a hopeless romantic. You want nothing more than to have a partner for life, and people think it’s quite WEIRD that you enjoy watching romcoms so much, but yet you are single, especially because your looks on the outside are pretty ADORABLE. You know you’re not in a relationship because no one would ever be able to handle having one with someone like you, or they would leave you the moment they saw one of your cuts. The only reason why you are physically appealing is due to the fact that you also have an eating DISORDER along with everything else that is WRONG with your head. So you push them away, getting angry at both them and yourself.
Your name is Karkat Vantas, and you are a WORTHLESS FREAK who is a stain on society,
You have blood in the night, and you will die younger than everyone else you know.

I was browsing the Humanstuck tag…I see Karkat mostly portrayed as either having red hair or being albino in order to keep the idea that he is different from everyone else.
In my head, he looks pretty standard (save for the piercing and tats) on the outside, because in canon, he appears like any of the other trolls physically. He is a mutant (a freak) because of his blood color, as deemed by their society. So it is something hidden, that someone wouldn’t know unless told (or if he was bleeding).
Humanstuck…People with mental disorders can appear pretty normal…you know that quote you always see, “She’s smiling on the outside, but she’s crying on the inside”. If you, or anyone you know, struggles with mental illness[es], then you probably, sadly, know how our society views and treats people who have these issues.

You keep your MENTAL ILLNESS a secret. You don’t talk about it, because you’ve learned that society views you as nothing more than an ATTENTION-SEEKING STAIN. You’ve learned that people see you as pathetic, lazy, and CRAZY…well, you are, aren’t you? You’ve learned that people treat you DIFFERENTLY once they find out you have to take MEDICATION for all your mental sicknesses—all of them. They call you “worthless” and “freak”. They don’t treat you as an equal. You are less than the normal people of the world.

So you wear long sleeves and pants every season of the year. You tell people you like getting PIERCINGS and TATTOOS because you think they are cool, rather than the truth that the sting of the needles help you not CUT for just a little bit. You tell people that you work from home, instead of informing them that you’re unable have a job, because your anxiety, paranoia, anger, depression, OCD, and insomnia leaves you unfit to function in a normal life style. When you try to PRETEND to be like a normal person, you always end up SUICIDAL and in a mental institution.

You fall in love easily, and you are actually a hopeless romantic. You want nothing more than to have a partner for life, and people think it’s quite WEIRD that you enjoy watching romcoms so much, but yet you are single, especially because your looks on the outside are pretty ADORABLE. You know you’re not in a relationship because no one would ever be able to handle having one with someone like you, or they would leave you the moment they saw one of your cuts. The only reason why you are physically appealing is due to the fact that you also have an eating DISORDER along with everything else that is WRONG with your head. So you push them away, getting angry at both them and yourself.

Your name is Karkat Vantas, and you are a WORTHLESS FREAK who is a stain on society,

You have blood in the night, and you will die younger than everyone else you know.

I was browsing the Humanstuck tag…I see Karkat mostly portrayed as either having red hair or being albino in order to keep the idea that he is different from everyone else.

In my head, he looks pretty standard (save for the piercing and tats) on the outside, because in canon, he appears like any of the other trolls physically. He is a mutant (a freak) because of his blood color, as deemed by their society. So it is something hidden, that someone wouldn’t know unless told (or if he was bleeding).

Humanstuck…People with mental disorders can appear pretty normal…you know that quote you always see, “She’s smiling on the outside, but she’s crying on the inside”. If you, or anyone you know, struggles with mental illness[es], then you probably, sadly, know how our society views and treats people who have these issues.

Dec 14, 2012

I remember watching Eva in high school…and seeing this scene…and even back then, I thought, “It’s me.”

Reblogged from sylladex

source: sawzee

Dec 13, 2012

My Psychology Professor: People who are not depressed see the world the way they want to see it. People who are depressed see the world the way it actually is.

Reblogged from needtoselfharm

source: choosingtoforget

Dec 9, 2012

I keep seing people being down on themselves all across Tumblr. And I want to say stuff to you guys.

stella-rogers:

I think that the reason that so many Tumblrites have lots of issues with depression and sadness and anxiety is that we are a creative, expressive bunch of people, and that kind of brain usually comes at the cost of personal mental health.

Seriously, look at anyone who has created some work of art that you love. All of these songs and paintings and comics and writing comes from people who have had to wrestle with their own brain time and time and time again. They are able to do what they do because they have the kind of talent and intelligence and empathy that enables work that speaks to people. You can’t make something so powerful if you don’t have humility, if you don’t have understanding of what it means to feel like shit sometimes and to deal with that constructively by making art. Whether you think it’s crappy or whatever is irrelevant— you have to put these things out there because it’s better to have it out in the world than causing a ruckus inside your brain.

Not gonna lie, I feel kind of hypocritical right now because I have (and still do) deal with a lot of issues of self-esteem and depression and the like. I’m one of these people who are “all down on themselves”. But I think that, as shitty as those things are and no matter how much I hate it, having that experience makes me want to understand and help and experience other people even more. It makes me see all of you talented, amazing people who are so interesting and funny and kind and smart and who can’t see these things in themselves and want to shooshpap you until you understand that yes, you are all of these things.

You’re fucking awesome. You’re the kind of people that write the stories and create the worlds that people fall in love with, that make fandom possible.

And even if you feel like crap, that crap is something that can be a resource. It can be the fodder for your creative brain that probably doesn’t shut up at night— so get out of bed and write or draw or play something and put those thoughts outside of yourself and come back to them some other time.

And don’t be afraid to get help. I resisted therapy for years and years and when I finally gave in and went, it turned out to be one of the best things I ever did with my life. Same goes for medication— it’s exactly the same as putting a cast on a broken leg, or physical therapy for an injury. It’s not a crutch and it’s not a cure-all, but it’s a tool to help you with a problem that isn’t just in your head. It’s not your fault, but you can do something about it. Get help. It’s not weakness. It takes more strength to get help than it does to use the inertia of “no I’ve got to handle this on my own” to justify staying in the same rut.

I could go on and on about drama and relationship woes and things of that nature, but I won’t, because I don’t know your lives. However, I do know that you can’t give up. No matter how much you don’t want to get out of bed, you can’t give up. Even if continuing on is just a way to say “Fuck you” to depression and anxiety, that’s enough.

I can’t make you see things in yourself that you don’t see, but I just want you all to know that even if you can’t see it there are other people out there who believe in you, and who know that their belief is not misplaced. We know because we’ve seen the beautiful things that you write and make and those kind of things don’t come from people who aren’t creative and empathetic and worth getting to know.

Also, just so you know, I’m digitally hugging you so hard right now.

I love every word of this.

Reblogged from stella-rogers

Dec 4, 2012